im feeling really scared right now. ive never felt this terrified before :( i need assurance :(

my body's aching all over and i really have no idea why D:
dark side today : had nothing to do at home
bright side today :arya'll back in indo this evening :)

plans for tomorrow: watch "new moon" with cousin jessica:D

yesterday was alright . had dinner at this japanese buffet in some hotel. the food was alright , except that it took forever for the dishes to come D:and by the time the food arrived, i felt really full already . D: but i had the chance to meet nephew julian yesterday and HE IS SO CUTEEE!!!

hmmm .. today i went to the salon to cut my hair and i really feel so B-O-T-A-K after that . not that i really am botak . but it feels like my head's lighter now . HAHA . but i still look so CHINA-ISH in my quite long hairstyle now :)
AHAH

not sure what else is there for me to share but ummmmmmmm i think ill have more things to say tomorrow :D

toddles!
xoxo
steff

1st December 2009

one day in indo and i really couldnt find anything else to do. ANGELINE PLEASE BE BACK SOON!
D:
today was pretty boring . woke up at 630 am . i really dont know how it works, but oh well , i got really fresh after that and i couldnt find myself all sleepy anymore .
so then i decided to just read a comic instead. HEH. pretty no life huh.
then bathe and all , and off i went to visit dear grandpa.
didnt really talk to him much . it was more of like a staring game. our conversation lasted for only about 15 minutes . which was not long .
i really didnt know what to talk to him . cause often , he will always talk to me in some weird chinese language. its something like cantonese, except that its not -.- apparently, its some language which i couldnt digest and understand .
so often , our conversation ended up in us talking in two different subjects . heh so much for talking .

after talking for that 15 minutes, off i went to sit in my grandpa's rocking chair. and with the cooling atmosphere in the house,5 minutes later , i fell asleep.
it felt really nice , cause the chair was all comfortable and cosy :)

havent had the time to visit grandma( from mummy side of family ) but believe me , i will tomorrow :) then ill make time to visit little cliffy:)

nothing much has changed in our indo house . except for the fact that mum has put some of our childhood pictures up on the wall . its really cute now that i look at it . HAHA . how me and my sister used to act like we're some models ( the fact that we are not, makes it more amusing) and how i used to have like a mushroom head kinda hairstyle O_O ( god it looks ugly ) but oh well, its still funny :)
grandma bought us a new car. but the fact that dad loves it more than his own kids kinda piss me off -.- he's treating it better than us . wth .

grandma really loves me :) and i really love her :) i tell you , SHE'S THE MAN ! i must really applaud her . if not for her, i guess my family wouldnt even survive O_O . but yeah . like most of the ppl in the neighborhood have been saying , that my grandma is the best :) i believe them and she really is the best grandma ever :D
she's better than your grandma ill say :) but sometimes , her actions may kinda piss me off , still , i love her :) * praise and applaud *

ps: i feel fat D: UGHHHH . i think i need to start playing the hullahoop . UGHH

3rd post today and i have a friend

hey arya ! goodluck for your tounament !

im sure you can trash the other opponents with you ultra amaZing "arya the greatness" badminton skills.
cmon crouching tiger! dont hide that dragon power of yours! HAHA


sorry couldnt be there today :) though i know you want me toooo :D HAHa . anyway it wouldnt make a difference if angel was there right ? it would be like angeline and 2 steffie's along if she was there:) and im sure you can come home with a super huge trophy in your hand :)
have faith and YOU CAN DO THIS !

you know if i could attend the tournament today, i would really make a big board for you with my amazing art skills( hoho self-praise)but since im leaving for indo today , i shall post about your tournament in my blog :) ( not that my blog is well-known or something like that ) but im sure they are some people reading this :) and they would know that i have this friend called ARYA :D


ps: cant wait for bali trip ~ :):)

all in the past

you know in life, im sure there must be parts of it that you wish you could turn back time and repeat that particular day all over again.

my birthday :

how i wish i could have a celebration for it. cause every year, everyone seems to have forgotten about it. since its always near the major exams, people in school , they just dont see it as important. well hey, it isnt. but wouldnt it be nice if someone were to actually celebrate for you ?presents and wishes, who wouldnt love those? especially if it was given by people who cares about you .

this year, my birthday doesnt feel like a birthday .and i really wish, i could celebrate my birthday in indo . somehow.. or maybe the bali trip ? yeah i would really love that ..

facebook made me feel better :)

On this day, God wants you to know...
... that difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life.

what a sunday

this week has been a rather boring week.

church was quite empty and everyone looked so dead . and gosh i hate that feeling when everyone's so dead and bored.

crazy people like jeremy did the craziest thing today :) he tried to carry aaron, a big giant person . haha seriously , jeremy might kill himself by breaking his neck -.-

aaron is a funny person :) whenever he starts to open his mouth , you know something funny is going to come out of there and it'll definitely crack you up !he always do the most funny and craziest things . kinda reminds me of shaun . i miss him . wonder what he's been up to lately.

messsage to shaun :

hey, havent talk to you for quite a while now . i know you wont be visiting my blog now, but well, ill be putting this just in case.

be back in indo tomorrow, and i wont be there on the 3rd december to wish you a happy birthday , like how you were there to wish me one on my birthday .sorry.

so this message is just to wish you a happy birthday, if you ever read this..

wishing you a healthy and happy life ahead shaun. i've missed you, i really hope you're alright and keep working hard to achieve your dream , veterinarian :)

didnt meet louis today, though i really wished i did. :( everything's been really weird for me. i really dont know how to describe it , but i really hope everything will fall back to how it used to be. cause right now, its all too different, and it really takes time to accept the changes made .

im sorry for saying this friend, though i feel like we've gotten closer, at the same time, i feel like im about to lose you anytime soon. its like we're drifting apart, slowly, i can sense us being strangers. it really scares me , the fact of losing you . cause all these years , you've been there. and im afraid, once you're gone, i may not be able to be who i used to be :.( i know what i should do is to support, idea of what makes you happy, makes me happy too. but still,when things change , i guess it will be awkward at first and one of us has to give in and learn to accept. the moment of change . and i guess that person, would be me.

realising what i have to do, it might sound simple, but like they said , its easier said that done ?and i've been struggling. things weren't made any easier, knowing the fact that i have to face you and at the same time , to try to make you understand, how i feel towards these changes, that im sad to say might affect our friendship ?

i really hope that i will stay strong and pull myself through this..